The boredom of “I will”

The other day I was talking to an old friend who told me a story. I remembered that I already had heard this story hundreds of times. I held to that idea and found it funny as we all do tell the same story many times when we are in the intimacy of a good friendship, but sometimes it’s only a way to fill up an empty moment because nothing new has happened. Yes, this is more like it. While I was half listening already waiting for the climax of his tale, my mind started to search deeper in my little epiphany. Yes, people tell the same things when nothing happens or just keep on talking with many “if” or “I would do this” or even a “I would do that”.

How many times did I talk about this or that project and am still talking about it. Yes I confess, I do this once in a while. It’s both thrilling and scaring to actually do the things we want to do or actually walk the lines we dreamt of. But it feels good when they are done and, most of all, it makes you grow. Suddenly the story and our conversation ended as it was time for me to act. I excused myself and told him I had to get some groceries before the store would be overwhelmed by locals coming back from work. We set up a new meeting and went separate ways.

All year long I listened to “I will” followed by numerous requests and wishes. Only a few persons actually do something of it instead of repeating the same thing over and over to themselves. Few actually move to change their lives. Some actually do it quickly, most though slowly, but it still counts as a move.

I was decisive. No more of this “I’ll do this one day” or “I should do this again”. Resolute I walked into the store aiming for what I’ve been talking about for three or four years by now, a reminiscence of the past, but still a glorious one. I collected my things and went calmly but firmly to the cash register. I paid and went home smiling. I took the Laurent Perrier, Brut of course, and set it up over the chimney as it was the safest place to expose it at.

This is one of the best champagnes I know, mixing tradition and a strong enduring taste. I’ve been thinking of buying one for many years. Now here it was, waiting for the success that comes with it. And here it stands, looking forward to settle the score with the rest of my unfinished businesses.